Do things get done more efficiently (or maybe just completed at all) if you do them yourself, yet you're exhausted and wish someone could help? Do you receive your self-worth from your accomplishments? In other words, if you do a lot of things well, do you think you're loved because of these things?

How can we pray in faith if we're not absolutely certain that what we're asking for is in accordance to the will of God?

About a month after my now fiancé and I started dating, we were on the phone one night when he got really quiet. I asked him what was wrong and he said, “I just don’t understand how a beautiful, godly, single woman like you would be interested in a guy like me.” I proceeded to ask him what that even meant, so he answered, “You’re pure, but I have this dirty stain on me that I can’t get off.” My heart sank when I heard those words come out of his mouth because I knew he was referring to his divorce, so I asked him, “What’s the point of the cross?” All I heard was a sigh of relief, followed by him saying, “You have no idea how much that simple statement just did for me.”

One day when I was on Twitter I scrolled past a tweet that had been “Retweeted” and “Liked” by multiple people, specifically girls. I bet you can guess what it said by the title of this post. The tweet read, “I’d rather be single than date online.”

My initial reaction was to get defensive (those of you who know me know that I met my fiancé online). Then I realized that I probably would have been one of the people who retweeted and liked that post not even a year ago. I quickly realized that my defensiveness is caused by my own insecurity about what people think.

As I laid in my bed early this morning and couldn't go back to sleep, I decided to start writing. My journal caught my tears and I fought to recall truth instead of believing lies about how I wasn't good enough. I honestly wasn't sure if I wanted to share this as I’m still in the middle of this difficult season, but if it can help others and bring glory to God through it, it's worth it.

Without going into detail, I lost someone who I thought was going to be in my life for a long time. It was a peaceful ending and  our relationship needed to be over, but that doesn't mean it’s been easy. I wrote the letter below as if God were speaking directly to me. If you are reading this, I'd like you to read it as if He is speaking directly to you, especially if you are going through a season of grief as well.